Wisdom of God [4/17/12]

Hello all!

Hope things are going well for everybody! I'm almost done exams! I only have one more left, and it's in a week. I also found out that I MIGHT have another week in Ottawa. It would be so incredible if I were able to spend more time with all of these amazing people. Even though it's only four months, it's going to be hard without you guys, because I love you all like crazy. The people I've met in Ottawa have become a part of my family :)

One of the biggest challenges I've had in my walk with God has been my communication with him. It's so hard for me to believe in something I can't even see or hear. I want to know what his plan is; I want to know everything that is going on, but God doesn't work this way. He's not just going to tell you his plan in the beginning. It's not like he gives us a detailed list of everything that will happen to us in our lives when we are born. So, we must ask him when we are confused and do not understand. He always answers our prayers! It may not be an instant response, and it might not be the response we wish to hear, but he will always answer our prayers.

James 1:5-6 says, "If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind."

There are many times when I have asked God to provide me with the wisdom I need; at times when I struggled, I have asked God to guide me. I ask God what his plan for me is because there are so many times when I don't understand his plan for me... He seems to be working in ways in my life that don't seem to be having any effect, or are having a negative effect, but everything has a purpose. I often catch myself lacking faith; I have little doubts here and there.

Before I came to Ottawa, I had my own plan on how my life would unfold itself. I wanted to get into school in Toronto, and spend all of my time with my extended family. I wanted to attend Ryerson, and live in Toronto. But, God threw away all of my plans, and unraveled a new one. I never ended up getting into Ryerson. I hadn't even tried to get into Carleton because my average grade wasn't high enough, but I still got accepted with a scholarship. I was torn. I hadn't gotten into my first choice, and I didn't really want to go to Carleton because I wasn't sure about what I would do in Ottawa. I didn't know anybody, and I had never visited the city. At this point of my life, I wasn't praying at all. I wasn't reading the bible at all. I didn't think about God at all. But I needed to know why he was pushing me towards Carleton, so I asked him. He then revealed to me why he allowed me to be rejected from Ryerson; if I had gone to Ryerson, I would not have grown in the way I have now. I wouldn't have created beautiful relationships with the people I know now. I might not have been writing this blog!

So, even though what you really want does not always happen, if you trust in God, he will bless you with more than you expected. If you don't understand his plan, then ask him. He will tell you! He will reveal his plan to you! My relationship with Christ continues to grow everyday; I still find myself having doubts, but one day, those doubts will be gone. I continue to ask him when I don't understand, and he reveals things to me. Our God is an awesome God. He is capable of anything. He can move mountains, and with him, we can do anything as well! Let's cast away ALL doubts we may have!

Thank you very very much for reading my blog! Here is the song I listened to while writing this blog: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KwsvqVmFV6Y


- kjoosaurus out!