Doubting Thomas [4/29/12]

John 20:24

One of the twelve disciples, Thomas (nicknamed the Twin), was not with 

the others when Jesus came. They told him, "We have seen the Lord!"
But he replied, "I won't believe it unless I see the
nail wounds in his hands, put my fingers into them, and place
my hand into the wound in his side."
Eight days later, the disciples were together again, and this time
Thomas was with them. The doors were locked; but suddenly, as
before, Jesus was standing among them.
"Peace be with you," he said. Then he said
to Thomas, "Put your finger here, and look at my hands.
Put your hand into the wound in my side. Don't be faithless any longer.

Believe!"

"My Lord and my God!" Thomas exclaimed.
Then Jesus told him, "You believe because you have seen me.
Blessed are those who believe without seeing me."

This past weekend was full of interesting events. God continuously revealed things to me, and he told me something I hadn't even realized. On Friday, a friend of mine made a brief reference to Thomas in the bible. She was calling somebody "Doubting Thomas," and I didn't understand her reference. I had never heard of "Doubting Thomas" before, and I didn't think much of it at the time. So, I brushed it off, and I continued on with my life. The day after, Thomas was mentioned two more times. Then again, Thomas was referred to on the next day! It was on the fourth time that Thomas was mentioned that I realized something... God was telling me to search up the bible verse on "Doubting Thomas!"

As I was reading the verse on Thomas, I immediately understood the message God was conveying to me. I hadn't realized (or maybe I just didn't take note of it) that there were many doubts that continued to creep into my head while I was praising God, or praying to Him. At times, I realized I would doubt how mighty He was, or the things He had done. I didn't take note of these doubts right away, until I realized they were very persistent, and they only came when I was getting closer to God. When this was revealed to me, I was scared. I didn't want to doubt God; I wasn't trying to. I probably wouldn't have taken note of this if God had not revealed it to me! 

God doesn't want me to doubt Him in any way, and I'm sure it saddens Him when I do. He brought this to my attention, so that I may cast all of my doubts away. They have still been crawling into my mind at times when I grow closer to Him, but God is working in me as I pray to Him every time this happens. I realized there are times when we don't even notice we are struggling; we don't see what we are struggling with, but God revealed my struggles to me so that I would pray to Him and ask Him for His guidance! I pray that I may have 100% faith in Him without having to have "proof." I pray that I do not need to be doubting like Thomas was; I pray that I would be able to believe without seeing! He is a wonderful God who continuously works inside of us! He is always molding us, and changing us! What a beautiful, and mighty God! 

Thank you very much for reading my blog! One of these days, when I'm not too tired, I will write two blogs so that I can catch up for the Friday that I missed! May God bless your day!

- kjoosaurus out!