Unlimited Faith

Greetings!

Today, was a day filled with many blessings! I actually studied today... Which was surprisingly refreshing. Even though it was history that I was studying, I enjoyed it quite a bit. It feels like God has given me a new attitude towards school, and it makes me extremely joyful! I was also able to spend some time in fellowship with some members of the church, and this is a blessing I am so grateful for. The time I am able to spend with my sisters and brothers in Christ are so precious to me... To be able to discuss God, and grow together is an extraordinary gift.

For many years in my walk with God, I struggled a lot with my faith... I had so many doubts. I wondered to myself, is He really there? Is God watching over me? If he is, why isn't he showing himself to me? Where is He? How powerful is He really? It might be because I'm very human in this way. I needed to see things myself before I could believe it. At times, I would find thoughts creeping into my head as I was praying. I would think things like "What if there is no God, and I'm believing in nothing?" Being humans, it's hard to have faith in something we can't see or hear, but that's part of our walk with God. We must have faith in Him.

In Matthew, there is a story of a centurion who came to Jesus asking him for help. He asks Jesus to heal his servant who is sick, and Jesus says he will go to the house and heal the servant. To this, the centurion replies, "Lord, I do not deserve to have you come under my roof. But just say the word, and my servant will be healed." -Matthew 8:8. It's pretty incredible to see how much faith this man has in Jesus. He openly acknowledges how powerful he is! Do we have this kind of faith in our God? Would we be able to utter those words without having any doubts? The centurion did not doubt for a second that Jesus could heal the servant without even being present. He admitted that Jesus would be able to heal him with just a word. He showed faith in Jesus that so many others lacked.

I hope to be able to have this kind of unconditional faith in Jesus. I want to trust in Him without having any doubts. There are times when He seems so far away from us... I've had so many moments in my life when I felt that God had abandoned me, I felt he had left me alone and that I would have to survive on my own. But what I didn't realize was that He was always there. God never leaves us alone. It doesn't matter if we can't feel him, see him, or hear him. He will NEVER abandon us. We just need to continue to have faith in Him. We can't lose faith just because we feel like he is far away. He is always near us, and he is always there for us! We are so blessed. :)

Thanks for reading my blog! I should probably start writing them earlier, and not at 3 in the morning... Here's the song I listened to while writing the blog! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qJCyA6_uKFs This song is actually very special to me. I first heard it 4-5 years ago. It really moved me, and I only recently rediscovered it! So, I decided I would share this special song with you all today!

- kjoosaurus out!