Aloha everybody!
Today was an odd day. It was an off day for me, and it was odd because I'm not sure why it was an off day. For some reason, a wave of sadness hit me. I felt hopeless, useless, and sad. The only thing I wanted to do is crawl into my bed, and sleep until a new day shone. It isn't common for me to feel like this; I'm normally happy, but this odd feeling of sadness isn't a stranger to me either.
It's almost impossible to be happy every single day, every single hour, every single second.
I'm not even sure why I'm feeling this way. For hours now, I've been wracking my brain in search of a reason to these destructive emotions. Did somebody say something rude to me today? Did I fail to accomplish something? Is there something tugging at my conscience? Is there something stressing me out? I've been thinking, and thinking, and thinking about it, but I can't find anything. There was nothing out of the ordinary today. Things were as they usually are, but my general composure is different. A smile is hard to create, a laugh is rare to hear. My heart feels heavy, my mind feels dull.
This feeling overpowered me for hours. I'm not sure if you guys feel the same way at times, but it isn't fun at all. It feels like the weight of the world is on your shoulders.
It was when I was feeling this heavy weight that I read Psalm 55:22. It says, "Give your burdens to the Lord, and he will take care of you. He will not permit the godly to slip and fall."
Boy, when I read this verse, that weight on my shoulders was lifted. It reminded me that God is always watching over me, and he's not going to let me fall. He loves me so much, and He is always taking care of me. I'm still not my normal self, but I feel comforted. It's great to know how wonderful our God is. He is always there for us; He is always loving us.
I don't need to handle all of my troubles myself. If I give my problems to God, and ask Him to guide me, He will do this. I'm not alone. I don't need to handle all my problems myself because He is always with me and watching over me! Praise the Lord! :)
Thanks for reading my post :) Here's the song I listened to: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TI9RIbaa87I
- kjoosaurus out!
you know me.. im sad like most of the time but cause of friend like you i feel kinda happy so! dont be sad! and im here for you whenever you wanna talk about it! also.. thanks for sharing Psalm 55!
ReplyDelete:) Good luck on your exam :)
Yoohwan, I hope you stop being sad soon! There's no reason for you to be sad when you have Him :) I hope Psalm 55 encourages and comforts you! Thanks for being such an incredible friend.
Deletei've definitely felt like you, many times! those weird depression periods.. where you know nothing particularly bad or terrible happened to make you feel the way you do. and yet you feel so... weak?
ReplyDeletei once read that in those moments perhaps it's the unseen 'spiritual warfare' happening that makes us feel discouraged.. satan, who is dampening our spirits, with nothing really. but you're absolutely right; God IS always there, even if we don't necessarily 'feel' it. even when satan tempts us to close our eyes to Him.
I loved this post, Kristin! God is your strength, and it shows c: thanks for the reminder and encouragement. good luck on your exam!!
Wow, that was a really meaningful comment! I've heard about the "spiritual warfare" and I definitely believe it is a point where Satan is dampening our spirits, but he has no power over us because we have Him! :)
DeleteI"m glad this post reminded and encouraged you! Thanks for the comment :)